I don't quite know how to express all of my feelings at this moment. I am officially cancer free, and a cancer-survivor. But I feel almost kind of lost now. I have spent every ounce of energy trying to beat cancer the last few months, and now that it's over I'm not sure where to expend that energy now. I told Shana, I feel like we've just finished climbing a huge mountain and now I don't know what to do! So I have set a few goals in my life that reflect what I have learned during this experience. 1) I will start everyday with a prayer to my Heavenly Father thanking Him for my wonderful and blessed life, and try each day to make a sincere difference in the the lives of those around me. 2) I will never again take for granted my loved ones. Throughout this ordeal I have had so much love and support, and I will never forget it! 3) I will participate in Charity and Fundraising events to benefit cancer patients. This has been an eye opening experience for me, before this "cancer" wasn't really real to me. I knew some people that had had it, and I'd lost my step grandparents to it, but I didn't realize how many people are affected by it. I want to do more to help those people that live with this disease. 4) I want to share my experience with as many people as I can. I'm not special, I'm not superhuman, I'm an everyday, average guy, but I want to share my experience so that they can learn from me and take strength from what I went through. I want to tell people what I know so they might not have to experience this. 5) I will never forget how much my wife Shana has done for me. She was my Angel through this ordeal. She took care of me, cried for me, and unconditionally loved me day in and day out. She would go get me weird things I was craving, she put up with me when I was sick or tired, and she smiled at me everyday and told me how much she loved me. I will never be able to thank her enough for all that she has done.
I am now looking to the future, thinking of how I will be "normal" again. But I don't know that I'll ever be the same again. I will not be so quick to take every thing for granted like I did before. I will slow down, and enjoy sweet moments in life. I will race ahead and see what's in store cause I am so excited to be alive! I used to live... Now I LIVESTRONG!
